Okay. Taking a break.

I feel like I need to take a break from the blogging world. What most people seem to not understand is that this is not a place where I speak with authority or even the idea that other people will be reading what I write.

This is my space. I usually work out ideas, vent, and try to come to grips with what's going on by writing about it.

Apparently, yesterday, I did a poor job in expressing my disappointment in many Christians' choice to judge others around them - using others' political beliefs as the sole basis for their judgment. I obviously did not make a clear argument and unfortunately, that led some to question the Jesus I follow...rather they called into question the validity of my walk with Christ and alluded to the fact that I may indeed be making up my own idea of Jesus using the moral standards of the world around me.

I am hurt by this. As most people who read this blog live daily life with me and know me well enough to recognize a hurried and frustrated post when they see one.

I am not a baby killer. I just know that if I concede to giving the government an ounce of control over my body that one day, when we (Christians) are the enemies of the State due to our beliefs, they can (and most likely will) take that control further and deeper. This is the same logic I use to disagree with the suspension of habeas corpus for suspected terrorists - one day Christians could indeed be labeled "suspected terrorists".

I do not have children and it will indeed be difficult to conceive for my husband and me. Believe me, one day you may pass me at the abortion clinic handing out "I want your baby" ads to all the women walking in. I don't believe any baby should be aborted. My husband is the result of a woman (who I thank God for daily) who decided to put him up for adoption rather than abort him. No baby should perish because they are seen as inconvenient. I also hold to the truth that while many women will never suffer a social punishment for the crime they commit for having an abortion, they will and do suffer a far more severe daily punishment and these heavenly/spiritual consequences are sufficient.

Lastly, I want to clarify that my understanding of God and that Bible is one that holds them to be both infallible and unchanging. In my post yesterday, I never once said that the scriptures or Jesus or God or the Holy Spirit has changed. I don't believe at all in a Bible that agrees with the moral standards of today's world. I am in this world and not of it. When I stated that we had to try to apply the scriptures to the current age, I was in essence stating what man has been doing since the coming of Jesus - through constant study and prayer discerning how to walk out the commandments of our Lord in this life. Not once did I state that my God was changing.

My deepest apologies to all my readers and friends who enjoy this blog, but if it serves as a place where people can make hurtful accusations concerning the deepest and most sacred part of me, I humbly leave my pen at my desk and walk away.

Politics...Did Obama win because people didn't pray hard enough?

Okay, first of all let me say that I am an Obama supporter. I like where he stands on many of the issues and I believe that a lot of his stances fall in line with my beliefs as a Christian. This statement is obviously funny, or at the least interesting, because it's what most Christians have been saying about John McCain. But that really isn't what this is about.

I'm tired of ill informed Christians making assumptions about others' by way of their political choices, etc...based on their own theologically flawed views. I'm sick of Christians (and I'll open that up to all people) posting arguments or assumptions that can simply not be back up by either scripture or history or TRUTH.

Did Obama win last night because Christians didn't pray with enough fervor? NO! Obama won because, amazingly enough, God has a plan for his life and he was meant to play a role in our nation's history. Is he evil? No. Is he wicked? We all are. So, please folks, get off your high horse of judgment and stop posting dooms day type scripture that does more harm than good. I'm all about some scripture, but the intent of most of the scripture I've seen posted as of late has been to make digs and allude to negative or wicked character. God doesn't like His words being misused - so I would encourage one to study their own heart before using God's word to name call (or are you saying this is a prophesy?).

We do need to pray now that we have a new president elect - and we would have needed to pray just as much if McCain had won.

P.S. Please study things like Roe v. Wade before you make loud declarations that just because someone agrees with it that they are a baby killer. I agree with Roe v. Wade and hope it is upheld. I also believe in a baby's right to life. What does that make me? A Christian, but one who has attempted to consider all of the implications of upholding and overturning Roe v. Wade in order to make a decision.

I'm so disappointed in my brothers and sisters who have bought into the lie that they don't have to actually think or study the Word nor look at the issues that plague our world and apply the sacred texts to them. Just believe what your seminary-educated, denominational pastor (who by the way, has an agenda) preaches, right? It's not like a man in the church could ever lead you astray.

I'm feeling the itch

Hubby and I are proceeding with the plan that we will not be in the same place this time next year...and now the itch comes.

It happens most of the time an Army brat gets wind of a move: Disconnect, Disassociate, Disown, and Disengage...pretty much the same action over and over and over.

There are a few things that are making it pretty easy to slip into this pattern right now.

1) A back injury tends to take a lot of time...so, you understandably don't have time for other things. This make isolation easy to achieve.

2) A work environment where you're not really respected leads to the majority of your day being spent in a place you would rather leave...so...that's a pretty easy slip, as well.

These are just things I am feeling today...So, I'm griping. I'll get over it. I know God has a plan...and I am 100% sure that this plan involves a move - I'm glad God is making it easy.

Hillcrest Orchard

Last weekend we ventured up to the northern part of our lovely state to celebrate the apple festival at Hillcrest Orchards with some friends of ours. The drive was really lovely. We had to stop on the way up so that I could stretch my legs and do some exercises for my back, but it was fun.


We arrived at the Orchards and immediately took care of some urgent business.


The food was tasty. We had BBQ sandwiches, hot dogs, apple fritters, fried apple pie, and apple doughnuts. I washed it all down with a lovely mug of hot apple cider.



It was off to the races after lunch - the PIG races. We actually watched baby piggies race. They were really cute.


After the pig races we headed to the petting zoo and the pony rides...and then it hit me that these animals (even the baby piggies) looked pretty unhappy, miserable, and mistreated. It definitely cast a huge dark cloud over the event.


We checked out the moonshine museum....at the children's area (???) and to be perfectly honest I couldn't really focus on the moonshine trivia because the smell of human excrement pretty much overpowered everything in the small shack. It was only when I walked out of the small shack and saw a pipe oozing what appeared to be solid waste into the orchard that we decided to not buy any apples.


Now, this all being said...We had a great time with our friends...but, it made me mourn the loss of something wonderful and natural that has been forced into some kind of dirty, cheap, entertainment - just to make a buck.

Changes Are in the Air

Fall is upon us....okay, so technically it just dropped below 85, but that's pretty much fall here. We did have our first bit of frosty morning earlier this week, which means the pot mums my mom bought me a few weeks ago won't survive much longer (sad).

Back to the topic at hand.

Fall (or near fall as we have established) always brings change for me or thoughts of change. In our household these days there is a lot of tension. There have been whispers of change and rumors of new things and the two of us find ourselves at a crossroads and I have the distinct impression that we have been here for longer than we realize. I know that I have been at this same spot prior to even getting married - that whole marriage thing bought me some time; but here I am again on the precipice of the completely unknown and highly intimidating. What's a girl to do - what are a girl and boy to do?

We've been praying about EVERYTHING. I feel like I have been praying about EVERYTHING, eagerly expecting a certified letter in the mail from God explaining his plan for me since the beginning of time until its end. This, I know is not going to happen...I can hear my wise momma saying, "God doesn't give you the ticket until you are ready to board, sweet girl." These are things I know...I know them. I also know that God is faithful. I KNOW he is. That doesn't mean that He gives me what I want when I want it. It does mean that He is watching over me and, contrary to my very human thoughts, He knows exactly where hubby and I will be this time next year. That's comforting.

"I lift my eyes to the hills - where does my help come from? My help comes from the Lord, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip - he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed he who watches over you will neither slumber nor sleep. "