I'll be honest in saying that right now (as in RIGHT NOW) everything that should be settled for us as a family is up in the air.
Our life is one little multi-colored kite frantically flying off shore with a storm fast approaching tethered by a small little string to a rock. Granted our rock is pretty big: Creator of the Universe, The God who sees Us, The resurrected and living Son of God, The Trinity. Our Rock is huge. Nevertheless, sometimes being smacked around while so far up in the air in what could be very scary conditions can get the best of you...and you simply lose your wind. You lose the desire to fly. Your color fades. Our string is stretched beyond what seems possible over and over again - moment by moment.
Are you picking up on every single way I can stretch this metaphor?
Hubs has been unemployed for over a year. His days are filled with the writing of cover letters, the sending of resumes, the filling out of endless e-applications, and "inevitable" rejection. It's hard to face that every day.
I'm 33 weeks pregnant. I still don't have a contract for next year. My administration can't give me definitive answers and my district is in the middle of major budget cuts and a hiring freeze. My heart is no longer in my job, but my baby and I just can't get excited about having to travel 45+ minutes each way to do what will be an insanely difficult job.
So, where is my Rock? I feel like we are weathering the storm, only to be met with more clouds - which is pretty much the Pacific Northwest.
Father,
Please. We need a refuge. We need a safe place. We need some light in the darkness and anxiously await a joy that will come in the morning. Amen
I'll be praying for you and Matt....unknowns are always so scary to me, too. I will pray that the Lord will give you His perfect peace as you keep your eyes fixed on Him in the midst of all that's going on. Here are some words that encouraged me this morning and I pass them on that they might flood your heart with peace from all that they promise....
ReplyDelete"Delight yourself in the Lord and He shall give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him and He shall bring it to pass." Psalm 37:4-5
Love you cous,
Heather
Lyd, I'm praying for you and Matt; I know the Lord will open a door soon. If ya'll "tweet" follow ACC; they've posted several jobs recently. Also, saw a post for an activities coordinator at an assisted living home in Jefferson.
ReplyDeleteI don't know you, but I have been reading your blogs for awhile now. I started reading Everyday Eating Disorder and now read this blog.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to tell you that this imagery of a kite just really touched me deeply. After I read it I wished that I had written it myself because that is exactly how we (my husband and I) have been feeling this summer.
I am also expecting my first child, a little girl. We are so excited! I am working right now but my husband has been out of work for about two months. It has been very difficult. God is providing our needs. But the stress of it all is overwhelming at times and we wonder how are we going to make it?
We are taking things day to day.
Just wanted you to know that we are lifting you all in prayer and that you are not alone.
Jodi
Jodi,
ReplyDeleteSuch a pleasure to meet you! Thanks for the encouraging words. Congratulations on your lil' girl (we are already having so much fun with ours and she's not even here yet). We will be keeping your family in our prayers as well!
Best,
LW